Current location:	my chair.
Current mood:	curious
Current music:	cinder&smoke - iron&wine.

god damn, shits gotten weird. i just keep my head up, and hope i get through tomorrow alive. its egg shells now. in every aspect of my life. i have to watch what i say, and where i step with everyone. which i guess i should have done from the beginning. i just felt so comfortable here, and i put all my faith in people before i got to know them/incurred their "wrath". i just think that its time to take a step back and assess.

the prospect of an older brother seems more realistic than what i wanted prior. its just my way of dealing. i think it will work better for me this way. it seems that ill be able to steady myself easier.

raff over-reacted today, and i think hes out of control. hes finding every excuse to gain the power in our relationship, because it was me that had it for so long. he'll do anything for it, even if it means depriving himself of intimicy, hes all about the power. "the person who cares the least has the most power" i need to stop caring.

kyle mo' fuckin delaney has re-entered my life. and im obsessed. he covered a lot of firsts in my life, and im so happy we talk now. it seems right, at least for this summer.

i am newly obsessed with iron&wine. they are really really good.

la voce che incanta - if anyone knows what this means, please tell me.

i think tonight calls for an episode of lost, and early to bed. until next time..

FunLove,
me.