april come she will. may she will stay.
im doing better than the other day. i've been thinking and assessing, obviously with the help of others (one in particular, she knows who she is), and i think ive got everything pretty much figured out.

i saw a therapist this morning. i dont know if its going to be an on going thing, but it was good to get a lot off my chest, and get some feed back.

ive been let down many times this week by people i love. the pain is starting to numb. im so used to it i cant feel it anymore. im becoming immune.

i dont think that i'm afraid of myself as much as i was. im getting to a point where i can think about my actions and what i say before i do it. its more comforting.

i HATE the drama. ALWAYS fucking drama. and not just regular drama. HIGH SCHOOL drama (pun intended and not intended). people need to grow the fuck up, and get their shit together. stop making such a big deal about yourself. and learn to stand up for yourself and fight back. seriously, this lack of confidence (not esteem, CONFIDENCE) sucks. it brings others down.

i wish i could cheer up. i wish everyone would cheer up. i wish it was spring. april, come she will.